Dark Matter by Blake Crouch
“Are you happy with your life?” Those are the last words Jason Dessen hears before the masked abductor knocks him unconscious. Before he awakens to find himself strapped to a gurney, surrounded by strangers in hazmat suits. Before a man Jason’s never met smiles down at him and says, “Welcome back, my friend.”
In this world he’s woken up to, Jason’s life is not the one he knows. His wife is not his wife. His son was never born. And Jason is not an ordinary college physics professor but a celebrated genius who has achieved something remarkable--something impossible.
Is it this world or the other that’s the dream? And even if the home he remembers is real, how can Jason possibly make it back to the family he loves? The answers lie in a journey more wondrous and horrifying than anything he could’ve imagined—one that will force him to confront the darkest parts of himself even as he battles a terrifying, seemingly unbeatable foe.
"I can’t help thinking that we’re more than the sum total of our choices, that all the paths we might have taken factor somehow into the math of our identity."
I finished this book less than 24 hours ago, and I'm amazed and shocked and to be honest I am in tears. This book spoke volumes to me. The main theme that I pulled from this novel, is that we are always living our lives thinking, "What if we had made better choices. What if our lives were better? What if, what if, what if."
One of my favorite quotes from Dark Matter goes as follows:
"We’re all just wandering through the tundra of our existence, assigning value to worthlessness, when all that we love and hate, all we believe in and fight for and kill for and die for is as meaningless as images projected onto Plexiglas."
This is a harsh reality but I believe a lot of us really do take our lives for granted. I know that I do. We put so much value on materialistic things; on what we are going to wear today, or how crooked our teeth are.
Although this book was a fun, fast paced, gripping, sci-fi thriller, it was a lot more than this. It was a moving story about a man who knew that it wasn't the job, or the things, or the meaningless stimuli that make your world, your world. And even if you had made different choices in some other reality, that made you smarter, or richer...it doesn't matter if you don't have the people that you love.
I would recommend this book to ANYONE. I gave it a 5/5 stars on Goodreads.